#WHEN IT ALL
★ Have you ever experienced that deeply satisfying feeling that you are EXACTLY where you are supposed to be?
That EVERYTHING, E V E R Y T H I N G (!), every tiny detail of life makes complete sense? That all of a sudden, all pieces of the puzzle fit together – the good AND the bad?
WHEN ALL FITS TOGETHER
I am at that place right now – somewhere in the sky between Düsseldorf // GER, and Dubai // UAE.
It is feeling damn good (Hell yeah!) and even more importantly: it feels right. Totally!
PAIN AND SUFFERING ARE COMING TO AN END
The pain and suffering due to severe illness, the lost and won fights with and against myself, the major and minor losses, the living within a sick body with all its limitations and restrictions, the anger, frustration, despair, and fear – all that put me here.
All that seems to come to an end right now.
Sitting here in that aircraft feels like crossing the finish line of the sick-years and heading towards a new life at the same time – leaving all that shit behind.
I ACTUALLY DID IT
I can’t stop thinking: I did it. I DID IT! F*** yeah – I did it.
Tears run down my cheeks. (And I am happy to be alone in my seating row…)
It feels surreal. But it is really happening! I was longing for and fantasizing about that moment for more than four years! And now it is actually happening.
I pictured that ‘I did it’-scenario a million times and now it became a reality. Phew, what an emotional moment! Good to have a 6.5 hours flight ahead to get used to it …
And who thought that it would happen here? Not me. But yet it did.
NEW LIFE AHEAD
Although I regained most of my health back already, the Sri Lanka trip is exclusively about healing.
Just healing. That’s it, nothing more, nothing less. It’s about resting and restoring to finally and fully recover from a severe neuroimmunological multisystem disease called ME/CFS which virtually knocked me out and flipped my life upside down throughout the past years.
It feels like this trip marks the long-wished-for bridge between my sick-years and a new chapter of my life that yet has to be created and written.
Unbelievable but true: today is day one of that new chapter.
TODAY IS DAY ONE OF MY NEW LIFE!
Anyhow -have the best possible day!
“To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven … a time to heal, a time to break down, and a time to build up ...”
// Ecclesiastes 3:1-8